I was sort of in a trance this morning.

Early in the morning, our yaya wakes us up to get ready for school. I am the one she usually wakes first because among us three (Me, Yong and Yeng), I am the least easy to awaken. Add to it the fact that I am the slowest person in our house during this time of the day.

So this morning I can remember that she was trying to wake me up.

Yaya: Eian, gising na! *This is accompanied with vigorous wobbling actions on my shoulders"

Eian: ..........

Yaya: Hoy! Anu ba! Gising na! *She was still shaking my shoulders"

Subconscious voice: *talking to Eian* Do not wake-up just yet. Continue sleeping. You need that.

Eian: *to subconsious voice* No! I might get late for school.

Subconscious voice: Sleep. Just sleep. Do not worry about anything. Your body needs it.

Eian: Zzzzzzz.... *Such an obedient boy!*

Yaya: *Agitated* Hay nako! Bumaba ka na dun ah, malalate ka na.


After some moments of solitude, my Mom then tried her luck on waking me up. I was still on my state of trance.


Mommy: *With her gentle voice* Yang, wake up na.

Eian: *Obtunded* Hmmmm..

Subconscious voice: Continue sleeping.

Mommy: What time is your class?

Subconscious voice: Do not worry about your class, remember sleep is more important.

Eian: *Still obtunded* Opo..

Mommy: I shall go. Wake up na, Ok?

Eian: Zzzzzz....


After some more moments of solitude, it was my Dad's turn to awaken me.


Daddy: Eian, wake-up, wake-up!

Eian: *Opens eyes then closes it back*

Daddy: Hoy! Anung oras ka papasok? Anong oras ba klase mo?

Eian: *Opens eyes then closes it back again*

Daddy: Anu ba yan?!? Alas-7 pasok mo diba? Alas-8 na ah! Bangon na dyan!

Subconscious voice: Do not worry about your duty anymore. It has been taken care off.

Eian: Opo... Later... Zzzzzzzz.... *Nice answer huh!*


After a lot of momentssssss of solitude, Eian tried to wake Eian up *Waaahh! Schizo!*


Eian: *Opens eyes then looks at clock* Waaaahhh!!! 12 na! Waaahhh! Late na ako! Sheet! Absent na pala ako sa OR! Waaaahhh! Sheet malalate na ako sa N123 namin! We have a report today! Noooo!!! *Eian is now fully awake*


I was really panicking because it was already 12 in the afternoon, I had a class at 1pm and I had not taken a bath yet. I was outraged because we have a report for that class and I cannot afford to get late. But I was still after all in Paranaque, it would be a miracle if I would arrive in school on time. Waaahhhh!

So, I got my phone to inform my groupmates that I might be late for our report. When I looked at my phone it indicated that I had 5 new messages. When I opened it, it was from my groupmates. I was alarmed because, I knew that they were looking for me.

1st Message: San duty natin?

2nd Message: San ka na?

3rd Message: Eian, san ka na?

4th Message: Eian, di ka ba papasok?

5th Message: To All UPM Students: From Chancellor: Classes at all levels suspended today in view of the transport strike. For your info and guidance. Please pass. Thanks. JRRG.

The fifth message was from our group leader. I did not know and did not care who JRRG was. All I knew was that, the timing was so perfect!

It was a good thing that I was a lazy an obedient boy. Else, I would have wasted my time going on duty when the classes were in fact suspended. Worse, I would have been stranded on the road because of the lack of public transportation vehicles.

In fairness to that subconsious voice in my head, he was telling the truth. And he cared about my welfare! Hahahah! Such great rationale this is! Hahaha!

I just realized, maybe JRRG is the subconscious voice in my head.... Hmmmm...

Toxicity has always been a part of every UP College of Nursing student. It is like an integral thing that unites all of the people in such institution. Even the faculty of our college have loads of stuff to do. Since they are already few in relation to the relatively plenty UPCN students, it is quite understandable that they have got many things up their shoulders as well.

Toxicity unites all.
Toxictiy is love.
Toxicity is life.

Great!

Just great..

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It is our Group's "Free" week at the moment. We are indeed currently free from duty/clinical responsibilities, but we are still chained by the requirements we must conquer.

We have to finish our N199 research paper which is due on Monday! And we have not even started on the data processing yet! Yay for us!

Aside from N199, we have our N123 where we also need to produce written outputs! Such requirement is needed for next week as well! Double yay!

Go Community! Your are so heavenly! *Waw! It rhymes! Haha!*

Gawd! N181 still demands five more journal articles and a concept paper from us! Triple Yay!

It is just a good thing that this week, our group has no clinical duty. In this way, we can focus on other stuff we need to do aside from the mounds of clinical papers we have to submit each and every week from such duties!

I do not even know the meaning of "free time" anymore.

This thing I know though, toxicity readily comes free!

Dilemma is up about.
Too many tangles to iron out.

Faith shall decide fate.

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We had our data collection at the municipality of Pateros today for our N199 research paper about children's immunization. Because I loathe taking ordinary (no air-conditioning system) buses which travels through EDSA and SLEX *Read: Smoke=Death*, I opted to bring our family car.

Bringing it was not a big deal because I had brought it to Pateros before. Also, since this day was a weekend, not much vehicles were out in the metro jungle. So, it was relatively a less "dangerous" ordeal.

There was no problem whatsoever with my driving process.

BUT, if there was, I would have enjoyed free accommodations on a JAIL CELL.

It was not until I was about to go home from UP Manila (After doing data collection stuff in Pateros, we went straight to Manila because we had to meet with my other classmates for our other "responsibilities" *Read: Toxicity*) did I realize that I was driving illegally!

I did not have a license!

My driver's license was nowhere to be found among the rubbles of my oh so organized wallet! It was not there! As in! You see, I keep all my ID stuff including my license on the card slot of my wallet. However, since my wallet is so dilapidated already, there was a great chance that it fell off somewhere.

I was very nervous as I was driving home because if I get caught, I'd be dead! Waaahh!

Thank God! I was able maintain proper street decorum at that time. I was able to arrive home safely.

I am still a free man!

Waaahhh!!!

I failed to realize that I left my license in my room.

So noobish...

Nag-absent ako sa N199 kahapon para tapusin na ang assessment ko for community. May gawd! Kahit focused assessment na ang gingawa ko ay ang tagal ko pa rin gawin. Di ko na tuloy malaman kung dahil na un sa kabagalan ko o dahil talagang madadaldal ang patient ko.

 

Do not get me wrong na di ko gusto ang madaldal na patient, sa totoo lang, gusto ko nga ung madaldal para mas marami syang nasasabing info na maaaring magamit for my assessment. At isa na rin kasing gauge ang kadaldalan if I have already established rapport with them already. Nag-stay ako sa Pateros until late in the afternoon pero di ko pa rin tapos ang assessment ko!

 

Sheet naman! Naiinis talaga ako sa assessment ng family! Sobrang ang haaaaabbbbbaaaa!!!! It is so tedious talaga. Sobrang nakakangarag. Even a talkative person like me got tired for talking for a very very long time. Grrr!

 

Anyway, natapos ko na naman ang aking assessment kaninang umaga. And I was on time for the call time for us to leave for our class sa afternoon. Yey!

 

Gustong gusto ko talaga ang two families na nakuha ko. Sobrang bait nila sa akin. SOBRA! As in! Compliant pa. At sobra nilang inaappreciate lahat ng gingawa ko for them! Kahit natotoxic ako ay nacocompensate naman ng treatment nila for me ang katoxican ko sa buhay!

 

Sila so far ang pinaka-mabait na families na naging patient ko sa community!

 

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We had a test for N123 kanina.

 

Sheet! Ang hirap!

Madali lang sana un kung nag-aral ako.

 

Sheet!

Hindi nanaman ako nag-aral. Kahit nga basa, I was not able to do because this of this "O so glorious community"! Waaaahhhh!

 

Sheet! Feel ko ay sobrang baba nanaman ako sa test na un.

 

Well… Whats new, anyway?

 

Speaking of exam, ung first exam namin on such subject din ay binalik na. But then, the result was not at all inspiring. Sheet! Sobrang sabit ang score ko sa passing! Waaaaahhh! So stupid of me!

 

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Nag-photo and vid shoot kami kanina for our instructional vid for our community.

 

For the photoshoot, I was the patient that had a cardiovascular arrest. Kasi, I was a drunkard and a heavy smoker daw so ayun, patay! Sobrang bangag! Haha!

 

And for vid shoot, I was still the patient and Iaii was the nurse who is taking my blood pressure. Nabugbog kaya ung kamay ko. Kumusta naman? Ilang ulit kaya ung takes dun! Haha!

 

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I have not been late for our official community duty! Yey! Such an accomplishment for me! Bwahaha!

 

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Three days down.

 

Four more glorious days to go!

 

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And sheet, bakit ito ang gingawa ko??